[MUHAMMAD AMIR ASA'AD]
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[13 August 1994]
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Hey readers... I just finished two other papers for my Mid Year Examination.. Which is Maths Paper 1 and Social Studies paper... Lets talk about the papers... Maths paper 1 was do-able and i think that I might pass it or maybe fail by a few marks... But for sure i already lost 24 marks coz i did not even complete the paper... Social Studies paper sucks to the max... I can;t even do a single SEQ question which was worth 25 marks and SBQ was sucky.. Its confirmed that i will fail my Social Studies Paper... Haiz... Monday is Maths paper 2 and History Paper... Practised Maths today and studied History today... Gonna do the same tomorrow.. Hopefully i will finally Pass my Maths after a full two years of failing it.. I must at least get a 70/100 for my paper 2...

On Friday, had a superb heated argument with my mum about my O'Levels and Academic performance for 2010... Received lectures and she claims that i am not putting in effort and i was like.....(Fill in the Blanks)... And i have been returning home late and i told her i was studying with my friends and she was like, Fine make sure you pass all your Mid Year and i was like ........( Fill in the Blanks)... Then she went to check my TYS and etc and she said it was bad and she got superb mad and kicked things around and threw her spectacle till it broke and my Uncle and sis have to come down to calm her down and i got one hell of a lecture from my Uncle and Brother in Law... I want freedom and he sail after my O'levels if i do well and go to a Polytechnic i will get it.. And i am going to work hard now... Me and mum are not in talking terms.. So, basically now i am all alone..

Another problem that have been bothering me is Boy Girl Relationship.. Most of my friends know i have a strong affection for this particular girl who i shall keep it nameless or call it by the codename R... I have asked her to move into serious relationship with me but she will only tell me the answer after Exams which is after 14 May 2010... At the same time, my friends told me that it was not worth my time as she is still Immature and i might just end up feeling heartbroken and might find it difficult to concentrate on my O'Levels... Yes i Admit that i am quite hurt by her actions but i dunnoe why my heart still tell me to press on and wait for her... Its like as though i Love her Alot... I myself have no more Confidence that i will be able to win her heart as her actions speaks for the answers themselves but am i right to say that or its just a pathetic assumption i make? She said many nice things which made my fighting spirit and feelings grow for her but at the same time now, she's dampening them... Basically i am either receiving a message of Rejection or just the Silent Treatment... Which is it? I don't know and I just wanna hold on to this wait but its just hurting me deep inside.. Indeed there are many other girls out there, but none captured my heart like how she did and people tell me to forget/ignore/leave her and its just painful but i know if i am rejected, i have to face up to reality and am i ready for that? Because her actions of avoiding or sending me a message is already painful for me and its hurting me deep deep inside.. Definitely I love her alot... I just need someone to talk to about this and give me the best advice... Its hurting me like crazy.. I just need the most honest answer... Please... Don;t have to send me a message and make me play the guessing game like what you are doing in Facebook, MSN and what not..

I need help
It hurts..
Be honest with me
I Love eu R

SpadeTwElve

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