Dear Blog,
I am not angry but disappointed. Just fuck off from my life?
I hate you
Leave my life
I don't need a liar
You suck!
SpadeTwElveLabels: Suck
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Dear Blog,
I am crushed and hurt. Just had to do that and play with my feelings.
Its hurting me
Its very painful
SpadeTwElveLabels: You lied
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Dear Blog,
I just love her. WHo is she? Izyan Nur Khalysa! I love you
I will wait for you
I love you
Only you!
SpadeTwElveLabels: Only you
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Dear Blog,
I am feeling better but still hurt by yesterday's incident.. I hope things will go better and hopefully i will be happier... I just hope that I will achieve what i want and Be happy... I just love you
Izyan,I love you
SpadeTwElveLabels: I love you
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Dear Blog,
First to a happy start, Spain won the world Cup... Its a nice score by Iniesta, and See them in Brazil in 2014.. Now with World CUp over, I will start focusing more on my studies and definitely i will be sleeping in class today as i am very very sleepy and I sure did not waste my time watching the world Cup since one of the teams i expected to win, did win the title.. Congrats to them once more
Secondly, I am crushed in all hopes to win her heart one more time.. I dunnoe if i should move on, or stay by her side, hoping for a miracle that she will come back finding me one day when she realize that i really love her with all my heart.. Definitely, i just need the final info from my Bro, and i will make my Final Decision which i think i know what it is already... I will always open my heart to her, but not to anyone else because I love her.. And no amount of words can express my feelings for you and the sadness covering me.. My Love is only for you Izyan.. How i wish you understood and could give me an opportunity...
Will my dreams come true?
I love you..
I need you..
I want you..
You are different..
SpadeTwElveLabels: You..
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Dear Blog,
Today is my Mother Tongue O'Level oral... I am not sure how i faired, but i feel that its fine.. My day started out perfect, and as the evening goes, my whole day is spoilt thanks to some people, who are unappreciative of what the seniors had done and some comments made that suck! I took some time off from studying for my O'levels to come down to training and help out with Hilman, and the cadets are unappreciative and said they don't like us coming.. Thanks alot for making us feel unwanted and giving a hell time for you FDI.. Guess what? We have suggested to close down FDS completely since you guys are not cooperating and putting in the effort. AND, you guys do not deserve nice treatment from us.. And fine, we seniors will not come down at all.. And dun say we don't care.. Because you guys chose it this way.
Secondly, i got to be frank with my true feelings now.. Since you are not going to give me a reply or whatsoever, i take it as a No or you don't need me at all.. I got to be honest.. Even with you, I still won't move on.. I still Love Izyan and my feelings for her will never fade because she's the one who make me move on... I realize my mistake and i won't repeat it twice... Regardless of whoever I know, My promise to her is that, my feelings will not fade and I will Love you forever... I will wait for you.. I promise.. I will not repeat the same mistake again, I hope..
I just wish for a second chance
I want you
I hope one day you will accept me
I love you
SpadeTwElveLabels: You are the one
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Dear Blog,
I have been wondering to myself these few sleepless nights... What's love? Its very difficult to define love.. Love is just something wonderful and can be dreadful at times.. The sweet moments in love are what people look for.. Hmm... I just still cannot find the true girl i love now... I only have feelings for one girl at this moment, but its like as though, the old feeling is getting alive and i don't know why.. I know it sucks and everything is clear cut that she wants to study and etc, but i am not sure if its really true.. If it is, then i am out of words.. But now, i see her different towards me after turning me down.. I don't know if i am willing to accept her if she returns to me or do i really want to go with the true girl I love? Oh God, please show me the true path to happiness... I do not want to fail in Love or anything again.. It takes me a long time to recover from all this crap hurt.. This can be said hanky panky to you, but i won't play with a girl's feeling as i know their heart is as fragile as glass.. A single mistake can create a huge impact in their life and i don't want to be the type of guy who leaves the girl after finding someone else or etc.
I guess what Hadyu said to me was true.. Even when i change now, people will still think of me as the old Amir in 2007/2008.. I do change but people don't seem to realize it and still think I am still the same old guy. I am reassuring you people i am no longer the old playboy like i used to be.. But i know i am having multi love feeling for two girl.. But eventually, i will have to choose and i won't cheat on their feelings.. Well, I guess what's best now for me is turn to ALLAH for help and he will show me the light and will not fail me.. As for all this, I just hope ALLAH will answer my prayers and I will be happy with whatever happens.. If God Willing..
I am lost now
I need the light
God, Please answer my prayers
SpadeTwElveLabels: Looking for the light
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Dear Blog,
Sports Day is already over.. I ran for two events.. An Individual and team event.. I got third for my individual but did not win any medal.. For team event, we won second place and we were very proud of ourselves as we gave it our best and we won.. After that, Hadyu and I went for shower at my place and then we went to the mosque and prayed in the rain.. After that, we rushed home and changed to go to Jerric's Place before heading to Pizza Hut for a lunch treat by Mr Loh.. The feeling was awesome with the class!! I wish the bonding will forever be like that.. YEAH!!! Now, i want to concentrate on my O'Levels as its very important and i will be applying for DPA... I hope i will succeed...
As for love life, I guess i have forgotten all the past and what i want now is a brighter future and hopefully i won't fail in this coming love life i am trying to look and i am trying to win her heart.. Only a few people know about it and I really hope i will be able to win her heart... I will treasure it after i won and i won't hurt her.. I Love her and i will do anything for her.. Even if it takes me to risk my life, I will... This is how true i feel for you.. I dun have anymore feelings for be it Izyan, Roziana or whoever!! Now, I dedicate my heart and soul to only you Syafiqah... Its up to you whether you are willing to open your beautiful heart to a normal guy like me who is not good looking and imperfect.. I Love you Syafiqah
SpadeTwElve
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