Good Results
No more than 13points during O'Level
New Soccer Boot
New Long sleeve shirt
Macbook
Go for 60 Cadet Officer Course
English:A2
Mathematics:B3
Combined Sci:B3
Combined Humanities:B3
Mother TOngue:A2
Design And Technology:A1
Its been a long time since i updated my blog... Alhamdulilah, my Exams are doing good except for certain papers..Insyaallah, i will be able to move on to Poly Education. Amin..
Today, I went for classes at Alfa Education Centre.. When i was there, i was helping out Ust Yusuf teaching his class as he had to go for Jemputan.. Alhamdulilah, i was able to teach using the knowledge i received from my previous classes that i attended.. Insyaallah, I will want to consider an Ustaz as my alternative job.. When someone came to class, she seemed shocked that i was sitting there conducting the class.. She asked me if i was really an ustaz.. I just smiled and said i am just an assistant and insyaallah training to be one..
Some were shocked.. What i just got to say is that, i realised my mistakes in the past, and i wanna change into a new leaf and mendekatkan diri kepada agama.. Insyaallah, usaha yang gigih akan menraih keuntungan... I dun care what i did in the past, as i promised to myself that insyaallah tidak akan berlaku lagi.. People might be gossipping about me and all, but i dun care because what i know is i am on the verge of changing myself.. Insyaallah, i will see myself as a better person and someone who is interested in Ugama and dunia.. Amin..
Aku ingin berubah Aku akan usaha Tidak menghiraukan kata kata manusia
As the title already state. I am not really in the best of moods... All due to Maths Paper2! There goes my A1 and A2... Fuck it! Why cannot Cambridge be nice and give similar standard questions like Paper1! Preety Disappointed eventhough i gave my all! My aim was a distinction, but damn.
This morning, went to play soccer awhile... Thought it was a great idea, but i guess its a mistake i made.. Anw, things are starting to change.. I guess the things are getting foggy and all.. I feel like giving up, but i know deep inside me, i still have feelings for you.. What am i expected to do eh?
My O'levels paper have already started.. English paper was yesterday.. It was manageable for me.. I hope i can really get an A2 for English.. Today is my Mathematics paper.. I really hope i will be able to do it well and answer all the questions well.. I just hope that my tuition teachers hard work, my mums effort has paid off.. I am really hoping to get an A1 for my Mathematics GCE O'Levels...
Ya Allah, semoga kau berikanlah hambamu ini pertolongan dalam melaksanakan Kertas Peperiksaan Gce O'Levelku.. Amin Ya rabbal alamin.. I shall get showered and prepared to go to school with confidence..Insyaallah i will be able to reach my targets!
Today i woke up slightly later because i slept late yesterday night... Then i started studying, and all... At 2p.m, i met Hilman at my house bus stop and he accompanied me to go and study.. Thanks bro... Then while i was studying, i recalled something that happened vividly yesterday.. I decided to find out the cause and i ended up getting my life endangered in one way or another... But, hopefully everything i settled and won't repeat itself.
I was blind at first to know your intention in not replying me.. Well, i guess its clear cut now.. Even after what you told ur friend, fine i accept it with an open heart. I won't hold any grudges against you.. Because, i know that i am not good enough for you.. I know myself.. Not good looking and not your standard.. I understand.. But, the least you could do was tell me personally, and not let me find out about it from someone else.. Its hurting me, but i guess its best for me to go... You abhore me.. My presence is just not needed.. Its okay... I understand.. Goodbye Ms AS..
I dun wish to take anymore risk in love... It hurts preety bad I will only reign victory With someone i know well
Today marks the O'Levels starting... I am quite confident to say that i hopefully will do my experiments properly and so on.. I am just wishing to get what i really desire for from the early of the year! I really think i can make it if only i slog thru this few days! I know i can make it!
As for feelings for you, I guess i have to forget about it, because you dun seem to bother about my messages.. I guess, you might have a better guy than me.. I just hope you will be happy with any decisions that you make.. Hopefully, you realized how much you mean to me, but i doubt it will happen and i won't be angry...
You were once in me I dun think we will be together Forget it aite O'Levels are important now.
Today was the day i skipped school again.. I dunnoe why, but i just don't feel like going to school at all... I don't know what has happened to me.. O'levels coming, but i dun give a shit... Hopefully, things will change in time to come..
If only you would give me a chance to explain the truth behind the stories that you heard, i am sure you would be astonished.. However, i cannot force you to give me the chance.. Its your choice in life.. If only the tears i shred thinking about you, will make you change your mind, i would be glad... But its not.. Just typing this on my blog, is already making me in tears for the seventh time today for you.. You must have meant alot to me,but you don't realized it... How you are acting towards me now, shows me that you dun wish for my presence in your life.. Bitter indeed, but i have to face it... You hate me, but i love you.. However, hatred is a stronger feeling and the amount of love i have for you, will not be strong enough.. People say that you were not worth it for me, but i do not believe in those phrases that people say.. If its really true,i would murder myself literally... You killed my hopes straight from today onwards without a single reply.. I understand that a guy like myself, is not fit to be with a girl as sweet and vogue as you.. You have that status, while i don't... Its a different level in life indeed... Its okay.. Crying for you, is all i can afford now.. I shall just be here, thinking of you.. I really love you and wish i could tell you...
My love for you is deep MS AS But i know, you hate me Why am i still here Because of Love I guess i am not good enough for you I miss you preety bad Cried out for you
O'levels are drawing nearer and nearer to me.. I am starting to feel the heat with Science Practical this week and English and Maths Paper next week.. Time flies so fast and its breathing down my neck already.. I just wished i had a time stopper and give myself more time.. Too bad i don't...
I realize that i am just an ordinary guy who has feelings for girls, but girls do not have the exact same feelings for me.. Well,thats life.. You cannot expect everything to be so perfect... That would not be life... That would be heaven! Well, i dun really mind having this silent or cold treatment from you Ms AS, but i just wish to have an honest answer from you.. If you want me to stop bugging you, i will... But forgetting you,will be the last thing on my mind.. But if its a request from you, i have no choice... I have a strong feeling for you MS AS...
Mum has been pestering me about my O'Levels like some spoiled radio.. She keeps saying that No ITE for me.. Fuck it sia.. Just because most of my friends come from ITE, you look down.. Whatever okay! I dun give a shit. If i never make it for O'Levels, i either go to ITE or repeat another year! If none of this does not appeal to you, i stop schooling! Fcuking shit! Spoiled my mood early in the morning of a Monday some more! Bravo for you mum. Calling yourself a mother to me! Fuck you! I dun think,i even wanna acknowledge you as one after what you said to me. I may not be as smart as your two other daughters, big deal!
I Love you Ms AS... If only i had the chance I would have taken But i doubt i have If you're reading this, I hope you understand how i feel for you..
I realized that my O'levels are just around the corner and my results are preety bad still. I really got to work extremely hard.. Looking at my Juniors in school going to enjoy themselves in a few more days, makes me think back the times when i was like them in their shoes, performing well for Exams.
Failure is what i call learning journey in lives. I grow stronger and mature with failure. Its the thing that will make you a better person as if everything is perfect in life, you will never be able to learn anything. But, failure can be extremely hurtful.. Especially failure in love or relationship..
I am very tired these few days...But its just my final few laps to endure... After 12 November 2010, No more books..
Aku ingin mengenali dirimu.. Namun, kamu hanya memberiku kehampaan. Apa salahku? Apa kurangnya aku? Aku sedar diriku tidak sekacak lelaki lain, Namun itu tidak sepatutnya kau menggunakan sebab untuk menghindari diriku. Aku tidak boleh berkata aku benci kepadamu, kerana di dalam sanubariku,aku tahu bahawa hanya kau yang ku cintai..
Its been a very long time since i touch you. Well, i have been very busy with school to the extent that something happened to me this week that i dun wish to talk about it.. Things happened and we went seperate ways.. I dunnoe if its a good choice but i just have to accept God's call and wish her all the best with her new relationship with her ex.. Well, its about time for me to stop fooling around and get back on task with O'levels in mind... But, one thing has always stopped me... The word FOCUS!! I can't seem to focus.. Therefore, from today onwards, I shall Focus my attention in class!! Anw, i might not be coming to school until 8/10/10!!! Weee!! That's it.. I wanna finish my homework! Byee
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